Tuesday, March 27, 2007

meeting with supervisor

Before our meeting with Cik Pah, suddenly I felt a bit scared. I just don’t know why, although I had prepared my research paper and almost have completed it. I have written everything that I want to write including the section of ‘Implication towards Education”.
During our meeting, Cik Pah suggested to me to add something in my paper. It is about how the portrayal of female characters in both plays similar or differs from Malay women. Does this kind of women is accepted in the society are they are totally out of place.
Frankly, I think it is very hard for me to do it. I just don’t know how to relate it to my culture and my race (I am partially Malay, but according to my birth cert, I am Malay).
Points that I have included in my paper are about similarities and differences of character traits of female characters in both plays. The similarities are how they live in delusion, how the title of the plays foreshadows their fate and their inability to accept the reality of aging. The only difference that I include is how these female characters react towards charm and attraction.
I just don’t know what to do. Maybe I need someone who can knock some sense in my head, or maybe I can see Cik Siti to ask help from her. Help me! I don’t want to drown.

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Extrinsic Motivation!

This weekend I’m at home. My home sweet home. Somehow it gives me energy and ideas to write my research paper. Maybe that’s what we call as extrinsic motivation. Looking at my parents face, I realize that I’m not supposed to let them down. I have to work hard for my future and hopefully I can help them in the future.
Thanks mom and dad! For I finally some kind of ‘electrical shock’ to wake me up and recharge myself. I finally manage to write my research paper until 6 pages! Anyhow, I still have to add more because the word count shows that I’ve wrote only 2020 words. There are 980 words left. Maybe I just need to add a point and elaborate on it!

Monday, March 19, 2007

Writing Research Paper

For two weeks we did not met our supervisor, Cik Pah because she is busy to observe students who went out for teaching practices. Well, it actually discourages me from writing my research paper. Like what I’ve wrote earlier, the ideas are there, lingering in my mind, but I find it difficult to put in into words and paper. I just don’t know why.
Every night I just sit on my bed trying to figure out what I am suppose to write. I’ve read several example of research paper. It looks so easy, easier than our position paper. Because for position paper we have to make sure we have thesis statement and topic sentence, everything must be clear cut.
But for research paper, it is like any other assignments that we have done before. Maybe just like the one that I’ve done in foundation course or in my first year of degree.

Friday, March 09, 2007

Research Paper- A Torture of Learning Experience?

Having to write a research paper might be a bless for some of us. Bit for others, they might hate it. Personally, I don’t know in which group I belong, maybe both. Sometimes, I think it is good for us to have this research paper to be done as we will have the opportunity to get to know more about certain writer. At the same time, I think it is also a burden. I felt tortured by this research paper for what I have to go through, especially preparing the drafts. Drafts are ugly, horrible, dreadful, but the final essay is pretty, nice. Just like Blanche said, “… funerals are pretty compared to death. Funerals are quiet, but deaths- not always.”
Sometimes I felt just want to blurt out. But that’s students’ life; assignment is just a part and parcel of our life. Not to mention educational hazard that we have to go through. I’m sure that all out there had experienced the same thing. So many works to do and so little time left.
Coming back to my research paper, I felt it is difficult to personalize it because there are a lot of people had written about it. I think of doing Malaysian literature, comparing This End of the Rainbow with Green is the Colour. However, when I look back at the calendar, it might be quite late to change it. Yeah, as long as the final essay hasn’t been submitted, I can still change it. But I hate to feel the torture again to search for reference materials.
Educational hazard a.k.a. learning experience. Hate it, but you still have to face it.